pregnancy tea and me

My midwife has talked about her recipe and love of pregnancy tea, since the first time i met her...

Turns out, there is a good reason for that!! Raspberry leaf tea has changed my pregnancy, for the better of course

I am 25 weeks pregnant and i look so skinny still!!! Even dear husband has made earnest mention of it.

The golden rule in my house is, whilst pregnant don't talk about my weight!! If you say i am looking swollen i might hurt you, if you say i am looking good, i will hurt you (lying is a sin, so don't do it) if you try to drop hints about how skinny i was BEFORE or say silly/stupid things when i am complaining like, "but you are eating for two" or "there is a baby in you belly" then those will be your last words.

But yesterday hubs said, " i hope baby is growing okay, because this is the best you have ever looked in pregnancy"

As off putting as that was (you know, cause baby may actually be not growing) i was somewhat flattered... then i was a little offended because i know how much bigger i get when i am baking a baby.

I have mentioned how much this tea makes me go (go as in... to the bathroom... to pee) it like a diuretic without the uncomfortable diarrhea part. Literally i drink one (rather large)mug of it then about an hour later i am peeing like a horse... i do not hydrate the way i should and yet so much liquid is leaving my body!!!

I am not swollen i feel like i can squat without fear of my calves bursting, i can keep up with my kids, my belly even seems tighter, less belly more baby if you get my meaning.

but the BIGGEST difference is my FACE. My face swells get fat retains water catches rogue calories, what ever you want to say, the moment i stop throwing up from morning sickness my face balloons to huge proportions... it had already started to this pregnancy, and now i seem to look skinnier again, after a few weeks of tea every morning!!!

I may be talking it up to much, but when husband goes out of his way to break my golden rule, and maybe even offend me, and also worsen my baby worrying, then i know he sees a difference.

and that is that

Running hot

This baby is making my blood boil...

I swear i am so freaking HOT all the time, i am freezing my family out of the house, haha

Thank goodness it is getting cooler outside, otherwise out electricity bill would be to much to handle.

A few days ago, it was so nice and cool out, like low 60's, i decided to go mow the lawn, i told the husband to go weed eat and i would push the mower (a little light exercise would do me some good) i got on a yoga top and some wind shorts(the kind i usually wear over a swimsuit... and went outside to finally after what seems like 6 months, CATCH MY BREATH!!! it was so refreshing, the wind would blow and i would let cool me to the core.

Husband walked out of the house just as i was pulling the lawn mower out... dressed in long pants, long sleeves, gloves... then he said he was going back inside to get a jacket!!!!

I dont think i am running THAT hot right now, but it was pretty funny! Me wearing almost nothing, and solid hunk of muscle and testosterone husband all bundled up like a pansy :D (no one tell him i said that)

now at night my kids are getting on their fleecy pj's and slippers, and i am turning the thermostat down to near freezing temperatures, and walking around in a cami and capris, still sweating... i blame it on too much estrogen!!!

I love fall!!! I appreciate it even more after the brutal summer of swim lessons that little Ms Murry Jane and i had to endure!!!

i did actually have to put on a hoody this morning, while painting outside as the wind was quite bitter... still loved every minute of it though!!

My maybe not so syndrome baby

Sleep is almost certainly out of the question here lately...

It all starts as i am putting the kids to bed... little miss murry starts to amp up the kicking

and it doesn't stop until i decided to get up in the morning

I have read (and read and read and read) about trisomy 18 babys, and apparently they don't move much in the womb

So i have obsessed about kicking and moving and any tiny little bump i can detect. For a few days about two weeks ago, i felt NOTHING, i honestly thought little girl had died (which, as i also read is not uncommon, most Trisomy 18 babies don't make it to birth)

And now ALL night long, i can hardly fall asleep, and then staying asleep is a whole new story. I am a light sleeper as it is, so every time i need to roll over, i have to start the fall asleep amidst the war in my womb again! (also every time i potty, like 5 times a night)

i should just give up sleeping now... its coming soon anyways

all the kicks have almost put my mind at ease about having a syndrome baby, but i still cant wait for the next ultrasound :/