made an appointment today

Today i made a "12"week appointment with my midwife

This will be the first actual check up of my fourth pregnancy

Next week is going to be super dee duper busy with swim lessons and still watching weston and brynnleigh in the afternoons, so i told her the week after next ould be best, and she remonded me that she will be having a baby that that time, so she asked if we could push it to the next week, so my 12 week appointment will take place when i am 14 weeks... Fingers crossed that i will become UNSICK in the next few days or week!!!!!

yay for second trimester bliss!!! oh how i long for it!!!

Also i was looking into birthing with a placenta previa (since First daughter had diagnosed parcial previa that spotaneously moved at like 35 weeks allowing for a birth au natural) i came across a lot of "you will die's" and stuff of that sort.... but as i was searching through forrums and blogs, i read a few acronyms that i did know UP'ers and UC'ers

So the wild goose chase of finding out what uppers and university of california goers share acromyns with started............... much filtering later i became inlightened Unassisted pregnancy and unassisted birth. WOW as much as i want to, i think probably a little TOO crunchy for me.  not so much the birth and pregnancy part, for the most part i just like being left alone, i prefer to not be touched and to just do my own thing anyhow, and it is usually so fast that it doesnt matter who is there. But after wards i dont really have the confidence in my self to asses if my baby is perfect or not.

Let me explain... baby come out: i can get the is baby breathing, is she pink, is she warm, is she hungry parts.... but what about other stuff!?!  i dont even know what could go wrong enough to tell if something IS going wrong... ya feel me!?!  i guess the point is moms instinct should take over and you know what is good and bad with your baby, but for me it is reasuuring to have some one who has seen this many many times more than i, to say "every thing looks perfect" and i am going to stick with that.

At least for this baby...